Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Can anyone fix my computer

December 14, 2004

It has been some time since I’ve has any kind of cognitive thought. I don’t have to write letters to a friend in Jail. While I’m glad they’re out the level of frustration has risen to the nth degree. Someone who has been confined for any length of time has a huge adjustment period to being on e outside. I can’t imagine what it would be like, but when I went to boarding school I had a rough time on summer break being used to total freedom, no big brother watching and no responsibilities ( I was 15 when I left there)

My computer at work still operated like it is a 286. People come and fix it and they say everything is fine but I will have to find all the old software back everything up and ask for a new computer. Problem is it will have to have a modem and I don’t thik that anyone kept the software for the modem in the work computer. My home computer is junk as well but it is manageable, just the internet stuff is a hassle and it is 5 yrs old but a new one will be 1500 ( one that I like ) and maybe if I finally make the decision to go lean I can pay off bills and get a new one that I will like. But I may have to go to DSL but it is an expense I don’t want to think about.

I weighed 263 this morning, I haven’t done the streaching to strength my knees (ever) and my hearing in my left ear is getting worse. I think it is a blockage but I can’t hear whispering and people talk so much trash or are afraid that someone will hear what they say, that they talk low and I can’t hear every thing they say.

Plan for this week
Write and mail Cards
Finish x-mas shopping
Hit gym at least 3 times (tough)
Make some kind of peace with Gail
Get sleep
Make own food
Streach
Maybe yoga?
Maybe not

Quite a list but it is feasible, tonight will be the test. Can I live off the sandwich from Subway and parlay that into low food intake and gym after I finish with GIRL? Or should I wait and start the cards that are bound out of town? GIRL called a whole bunch of times and I had to be very abrupt with her