Wednesday, May 30, 2007

On vacations, drug busts and no nuts

May 29, 2007

I didn’t realize it had been so long. A lot has happened.
My PU’s have left for Spain for an extended stay. N2 graduated from high school and it was special, I was very proud and it was fun to see all the kids who stuck it out and went to an alternative HS instead of dropping out. Any student who wants to speak can do so and the speeches were very moving as I could tell they felt a real sense of accomplishment. Anyway I told N2 that a diploma is worth a C-note, a GED is worth 40.00. It was well worth it but now she feels that there is no choice for the future. I remember the feeling.

Gf whose life was spinning out of control, messed up big time had her house raided as a drug house and was arrested. The police found only trace amounts so she will likely do very little time, but the possibility still exists she could do time as she has numerous nuisance charges. I’m hopeful she will get treatment.

But when the police raided the house they knocked out the door and her dad has to perform several repairs before the house is deemed suitable, In addition Gf and friends spray painted one of the rooms with comments the would only seem funny if you were using. It also made it look like a crack house. I got Kitty and had him neutered and he is staying with me now wearing a collar, I took a couple of days off to clean up paperwork, but since Kitty was not used to the house he kept me up and gets into everything, and I used this excuse to essentially do nothing although I only got creamed one night. The landlord loves cats and gets along with me and said I could keep the cat here until the 11th unless there is a problem. SO this isn’t the end, hopefully Kitty will be ok by himself and he will not make too much noise at night if I go to bed early and get up early. I pray there will be no complaints.

A few days after my PU’s left S1 was visited by someone who offered to put in a security system for a special price that was good only for a few days, a con right? Well S1 tells them that the owners of the house will be gone for a month. At least she called to tell me, so I call S2 to have her move the cars (since she has the keys) and apparently she took one of PU’s cars and didn’t leave another car, S1 calls S2 demanding the car come back or else. I get two phone calls each one screaming at me that the other one is a @#&^%. I pray nothing happens or there is a wreck because my parents will flip as they are not happy with any of us.

I have gained a bit of weight and my BS has been between 120-185, that is bad, I dread going to work because I really don’t like being there and don’t like what I’m doing. I have a fear that I will get the job I bid on because I have no faith in my abilities.

I will try to be positive, work thing out as they happen. I tend to make a big deal out of stuff and spin scenarios that are so implausible they belong on an episode of “LOST”.

IF you read this wish me luck with the kitty
He has his collar on and has been sleeping except for an hour when he needed some attention and I scratched and petted him, cats really are a form of calming mediation.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

HBD to the old man and interview with a curse

May 9, 2007

Today is the old man’s birthday he was born in 35 so it makes him 72 , which used to sound old but it doesn’t sound so old now that I am 46.

Gf is seeing the PO which is strange because as far as I know she hasn’t coped to anything although despite once having a good intellect will sign anything to make it go away, which once cost her a year and almost everything she owned or valued. I am waiting to see what happens. On Friday she took a vow of sobriety, on Saturday she said she still had 3 days. I worked on Saturday and Sunday and we had plans to meet Sunday afternoon. She looked like she had been using all night long and apparently she had been. I reminded her of the letter I sent Friday that she said made her realize she needed to be in treatment and she wanted to detox, which takes three days. I went home and she called and said I was right and that first thing Monday she would go do it. Well she didn’t and said all the things addicts say, which isn’t really important because if you have been through dealing with an addict you love then you know what the story is.

So she conned her dad out of $$$ to get it out of her system, but yesterday thought that maybe it be best if she fesses up to the PO or whomever she has to talk to and go from there which is what I told her to do. She may get out of it since she has a 70% chance of skating on everything.

Lunch for now is over.
Tonight is Lost
Got call from dad saying he like my birthday message to him ( I sang HBTY)
He said he feels old and When I told him he has 20 years he told me he didn’t want to live that long.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

When is a interview not an interview

May 2, 2007

Damn 6 days since last post, much has happened some good some not so good
I put my meal to nuke and I think it will caramelize and open a hole to another universe.

Interview

After I made arrangements for an early interview Monday so I could go from the allergy shot, straight to the interview, I got a call that had me move the interview from Monday to Tuesday. I dusted off the Interview/Funeral suit, downloaded everything I could find out about the agency and studied a bit. I made a trial run to find the place, and it is easy to find. It is in a residential neighborhood behind a car dealership but has the illusion of being secluded. It looks like is has no place being there.

The Interview started out ok, the woman kept smiling but the man seemed aggressive and after I described what my experiences were, he kind of told me what the job entailed as though I had gotten the job and he was letting me know in no uncertain terms what was expected. We talked about the accounting system and I told him that I had worked with several and with a little training (I would get one month) I could manage it. Apparently since it is so small I would handle all financial aspects except for H/R. The woman seemed friendly and I think I handled her questions, but the gentleman seemed perturbed and I gathered from his explanation on how important it is to be there, and that some people abused their sick leave to the point, when they needed it they were SOL and took LWOP. I offered to show my leave balances twice but he said it was none of his business. Curious enough though, I don’t think I had a chance from the beginning, and they may have someone in mind. But I could be wrong; I’m replaying the whole thing in my head. Luckily on of my references worked there and I brought up her name in the sense that I got a heads up on what they do.

Lunch over, I need to post a card for my grandma who is over 90




May 8, 2007

Lost train of thought and haven’t written, had a plan but lost the Idea
Back to the interview, after thinking about it, they didn’t ask a lot of questions or have me sign the standard release of information. Talked to contact and she confirmed that he is a bit hostel, he is a rancher and thinks that smoking is a sign of weakness. If I am asked for a second interview I will feel him out some more, but it is unlikely because I am sure he has some one in mind.

Was asked a noncense question about a group we used to belong to by a buddy, it was fun and it wasn’t organized but when something weird happened e would say “Well we must consult the ***** about it.

The questioned concerned what the ***** would say about my predicament


From: Musings of a fat man
Sent: Monday, May 07, 2007 1:46 PM
To: old friend
Subject: RE: an';krtg'kn atrp
I have consulted the Great One
and I must take the four steps of realization

1) Organization-eliminate any useless paper, everything including toilet paper, I must also purchase a large sponge for the bathroom
2) Conversation-Look within one self and tape or write a 2 hour interview with my self, the questions must be written, four copies mailed to the four corners of the world and mailed back, the envelopes given to a Philatelist.
and the contents destroyed, the original is read on tape and I must respond to the questions. The video tape is then to be sent to Eric Cartman of South Park, CO for analysis
3)Conservation- I must conserve energy but drinking heavily for one week and sleeping the rest of the time while listening top the entire Pink Floyd Catalog over and over
4) realization- I must realize that nothing can stop me but my self. I must take a scientific approach to weight loss, healthy environment and healthy thinking, change my lifestyle, meet women who have make radical changes, and find those that believe they are now the elite, marry them and then dump all the negativity I have fostered as a chale on to them and become a happier person with someone else money


Upon further recollection I guess you had to be there.

Night