October 26, 2004
Have not received the inspirational note for today as of yet. Could not sleep woke up at 4:00 again, it think it is too hot the temperatures have been mild or have not penetrated my windows and the apartment stays in the mid 70 and the fan is not enough to do the job. More problems on the horizon, a few weeks ago I lost a battle on a procedure and a decision was made, apparently the person who won the battle has reversed herself and has gone to the method I recommended. We had completed the paper work, and were in the process of mailing it out. We had to retract it and we are basically in a spitting contest with another section and no one wants to sit in the same room and poor Steve gets to resolve it.
Lunchtime
And I had a Frito pie, which was only moderately satisfying, they had a special $2 but added $050 for garnish, which is way too high but they only make money on the garnish. I find that hard to believe but I think they must be losing money because they have been pushing items including Jewelry (don’t even ask), which I refused to even look at unless it is made by child labor. People are very jumpy now and there seems to be a culture of fear around Richard. I don’t understand why. There are changes afoot and I think I told you that we may be going to a swipe card and everyone has to use their swipe card, which will log in the time when they come in and leave. This is essentially a time clock and many are not very happy about it. The people I am mad at I am sending negative energy at and it does not seem to be working.
The election is a week away and with every day I am more hopeful, almost everyone knows that if Kerry wins I will shave my head, (I did tell you right) I was gonna keep a rats tail but I am too old to do that and It may make me look like a OG from the south valley ese.
10 minutes to me being sir-works-a lot, and it doesn’t suit. All the water I drink make me pee and my urine has no color, is that a good thing?
Well, Guerra came over and asked what the problem and told me that I was mistaken about my memory and that Steve agreed with me and I asked Austin city Limits and she flat out lied. No more Mr nice guy.
1/2 hour ago Brunetta confronted me and we started to odd manning and I didn’t want to do it there so I told her that there is a meeting planned later and she said there was not going to be a meeting later and I became a bit of a smart ass it was like we were in the 6th grade.
So people come up to me and tell me right on, but I go talk to fungos are fun and it appears that cookies is telling everybody what they want to hear. Now he has a real problem, I will finish tomorrow as I’m sure you can hardly wait to see how it plays out.
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Letter 10 to a friend
October 25, 2004
Pleasure in the job puts perfection in the work. - Aristotle
You must first have a lot of patience to learn to have patience. - Stanislaw J. Lec
Minds are like parachutes - they only function when open. - Thomas Dewey
12:10pm
What a bunch of crap huh, although I would change the Dewey one to “Men are like parachutes they only function when deployed”
Just got your call, I didn’t sleep well again, but I don’t feel tired, I came to work at about 7:00 to get an early start and there was a problem and I lost everything that I had been working on. Did you like the stamp? It was very expensive to get made. So I have been putting fires out this morning. It is eerily quiet here. There is not much visiting going on up front, and Daniel hasn’t been as much a purveyor of nastiness as usual. There is a Kerry rally downtown tomorrow and I may find my way to it. I am more hopeful as more information comes out about how incompetent Bush is. There is some news so I will include it below.
WASHINGTON -- United States Chief Justice William Rehnquist is in the hospital being treated for thyroid cancer.
In a statement, the Supreme Court said the 80-year-old jurist spent the weekend in Bethesda Naval Hospital and had a tracheotomy on Saturday.
The Supreme Court is not meeting this week and Rehnquist is expected back on the bench when the court returns to work next Monday.
He has had a series of health problems. In 2002, he missed several sessions after hurting his knee in a fall.
President Richard Nixon appointed Rehnquist to the court.
If Bush wins, he retires when the current term is over, this will push up the ante on women voters, I haven’t sent a cartoon in a while
I may send one soon
There is a new Ozzy web site and they have places for you to review every show Ozzy has ever done so I may review the show in 1978 that I saw with my sister serty. They will give prizes to every posting placed so I may end up writing all the time to the website. I ate some red chili for lunch and I don’t feel too good, it was probably a bad move but I was in the mood for a tamale. For breakfast I ate the rest of the shrimp fried rice from that Chinese place on Karl island. I was good and avoided the Chilidogs that are on sale but the rice didn’t go down too good and it may have been the fact that it was 4:00 in the morning and I couldn’t sleep, I had some orange soda to go with it and it was diet soda, NEAT ! I may actually have to make some kind of dinner but I don’t have the inclination to do it tonight
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Lunch is about over and people are starting to file in to the abyss, I anticipate the darkness soon as it gets dark earlier as you are well aware of And I like the darkness except with all the lights from the clocks, TV, VCR it really isn’t that dark and maybe that is why I have a hard time sleeping
3:45pm
One of the temps who works here (there are lots of temps now which is a potential problem, one way to permanently reduce the workforce is to not rehire lower level employees) said hello barely above a whisper, and I leaned down and she told me that mushmouth sin fax urban has put out the word that she talks too loud, which is the same shit he pulled on me and I wonder how many others he has said that to. I wish he would just come out and say to not talk around his office.
Geez it is time to go
It may be cold outside it may not be cold but it is 4:55 and this will be another brief letter, I still think I should space them out.
But here it is time to go
peace
Pleasure in the job puts perfection in the work. - Aristotle
You must first have a lot of patience to learn to have patience. - Stanislaw J. Lec
Minds are like parachutes - they only function when open. - Thomas Dewey
12:10pm
What a bunch of crap huh, although I would change the Dewey one to “Men are like parachutes they only function when deployed”
Just got your call, I didn’t sleep well again, but I don’t feel tired, I came to work at about 7:00 to get an early start and there was a problem and I lost everything that I had been working on. Did you like the stamp? It was very expensive to get made. So I have been putting fires out this morning. It is eerily quiet here. There is not much visiting going on up front, and Daniel hasn’t been as much a purveyor of nastiness as usual. There is a Kerry rally downtown tomorrow and I may find my way to it. I am more hopeful as more information comes out about how incompetent Bush is. There is some news so I will include it below.
WASHINGTON -- United States Chief Justice William Rehnquist is in the hospital being treated for thyroid cancer.
In a statement, the Supreme Court said the 80-year-old jurist spent the weekend in Bethesda Naval Hospital and had a tracheotomy on Saturday.
The Supreme Court is not meeting this week and Rehnquist is expected back on the bench when the court returns to work next Monday.
He has had a series of health problems. In 2002, he missed several sessions after hurting his knee in a fall.
President Richard Nixon appointed Rehnquist to the court.
If Bush wins, he retires when the current term is over, this will push up the ante on women voters, I haven’t sent a cartoon in a while
I may send one soon
There is a new Ozzy web site and they have places for you to review every show Ozzy has ever done so I may review the show in 1978 that I saw with my sister serty. They will give prizes to every posting placed so I may end up writing all the time to the website. I ate some red chili for lunch and I don’t feel too good, it was probably a bad move but I was in the mood for a tamale. For breakfast I ate the rest of the shrimp fried rice from that Chinese place on Karl island. I was good and avoided the Chilidogs that are on sale but the rice didn’t go down too good and it may have been the fact that it was 4:00 in the morning and I couldn’t sleep, I had some orange soda to go with it and it was diet soda, NEAT ! I may actually have to make some kind of dinner but I don’t have the inclination to do it tonight
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Lunch is about over and people are starting to file in to the abyss, I anticipate the darkness soon as it gets dark earlier as you are well aware of And I like the darkness except with all the lights from the clocks, TV, VCR it really isn’t that dark and maybe that is why I have a hard time sleeping
3:45pm
One of the temps who works here (there are lots of temps now which is a potential problem, one way to permanently reduce the workforce is to not rehire lower level employees) said hello barely above a whisper, and I leaned down and she told me that mushmouth sin fax urban has put out the word that she talks too loud, which is the same shit he pulled on me and I wonder how many others he has said that to. I wish he would just come out and say to not talk around his office.
Geez it is time to go
It may be cold outside it may not be cold but it is 4:55 and this will be another brief letter, I still think I should space them out.
But here it is time to go
peace
Sunday, October 24, 2004
letter to the friend #9
October 24, 2004
It is 1:00 pm and I am doing my laundry and watching a 6 hour documentary about WWI. They are about to get to the Red Barron. Lobos won last night and the red sox won the first game of the World Series. I got another letter yesterday it is one where you told me that you got pictures of me with and w/o my hair cut
The letter is dated 10.20
I see where you have no desire to panhandle and use ever again. I hope that this is true, but you should not be smoking at all, you will lose what little privileges you have and you need to lose that aspect of you life where you are getting away with something. You may be bummer about missing the summer but I worked all this summer and while I did go to Chicago it cost a bundle. Here I was by a statue of Harry Carey right outside the ballpark
The election will happen very soon and it cannot happen soon enough. I cannot take the political ads anymore and I am slowly getting really pissed off at both sides except that the Republicans are the biggest assholes and it is very irritating that no one sees it.
I actually went out this morning and got something to eat, I went to golden chicken and got some green chili stew and I had forgotten how good it is. If I have the temperament to see you when you get out and you can make it through the first few days I will have to take you to the frontier restaurant. I was going to the movies but I went shopping and did laundry and it is already 2:30 and I am tired and I know if I go out again I will have to buy some hooch.
Philadelphia and Cleveland are in OT right now the Eagles have the ball and are driving McNabb just threw the ball 50 yards in the air and the receiver had it knocked away at the last second. It is Cleveland ball. 15 yards for Garcia who has been called the ugliest player in the NFL and a former player has said he is gay despite this Garcia has dated playboy bunnies. A series of bad plays leaves them 4th down and a yard to go, they will go for it. No it is a hard count, TO be called and it remains to be seen if they will punt, they do and an eagle bounce leaves them just beyond the 20. Dallas and Green Bay are tied 3-3 in the 1st. McNabb just went for a 40 yard run and they are close to being in FG range. What will happen? Quien Sabe? Pass to the 45 and they need 10 more yards to be at the edge of Fg range but I think they will go for the TD. But wait, Holding number 89. the eagles are pushed back, a couple of runs picks up 18 and they are in the kickers range and the will likely go for the td now, confusion forces McNabb to call a TO because the 25 second clock was running out, Ohhhhhhh pass almost intercepted, what was McNabb doing? Ok Akers comes out for the FG, 50 yards attempt. The snap the kick, it is good Eagles stay undefeated; the Browns hang their head in shame and walk off their field defeated.
Back to your letter
You can be funny sometimes saying I cut my hair or two, and I did not vote three times but I don’t talk about it anymore (by the way Angela’s birthday is Wednesday) because people just stair at me and a few don’t even acknowledge my existence. I don’t care so when I am in their area on a work topic I try to be as loud as possible and the person I am talking to have a hard time keeping from laughing.
I am glad you like my letters but it is hard to write every day and to be thoughtful. I have notions in my head but I cannot get them on paper. If I can stay off the hooch then maybe my head will clear. I have a hard time sleeping and I am afraid of becoming dependent on my leg kick meds. I may drop back to 1 mg and try to avoid any kind of caffeine.
Why are you drinking so much coffee? And what id up with the body lotion, is it a luxury that helps you stay in there? Coffee is a bad liquid but I hear it is good for an enema.
The fact that most people in there can not read or write should not be a surprise to you, it is a big problem and it is hard for many of the people in there to get a job with 1) a record, 2) cannot read, and 3) no experience. You are very lucky your dad supports you, what would you have done if your dad was a file clerk? You cannot expect your dad to keep opening his wallet to cover your expenses beyond your SSI.
Do you want me to mail that ministry thing for you, what is your address I don’t have it anymore and I don’t want to be on their mailing list. Maybe when you get out you can join that church down the road that is getting its members ready for the end of the world. I hope you remember to keep the stamp and I will put a note on the outside of the envelope. It is a long story on how I got the stamp but I hope you get to keep it or at least see it, pretty funny huh? If you didn’t get to see it I will have to figure something out I may take a picture of the envelope---------------------------------------***** Look just below the stars
Time to go, Have a nice week behave
Danny
It is 1:00 pm and I am doing my laundry and watching a 6 hour documentary about WWI. They are about to get to the Red Barron. Lobos won last night and the red sox won the first game of the World Series. I got another letter yesterday it is one where you told me that you got pictures of me with and w/o my hair cut
The letter is dated 10.20
I see where you have no desire to panhandle and use ever again. I hope that this is true, but you should not be smoking at all, you will lose what little privileges you have and you need to lose that aspect of you life where you are getting away with something. You may be bummer about missing the summer but I worked all this summer and while I did go to Chicago it cost a bundle. Here I was by a statue of Harry Carey right outside the ballpark
The election will happen very soon and it cannot happen soon enough. I cannot take the political ads anymore and I am slowly getting really pissed off at both sides except that the Republicans are the biggest assholes and it is very irritating that no one sees it.
I actually went out this morning and got something to eat, I went to golden chicken and got some green chili stew and I had forgotten how good it is. If I have the temperament to see you when you get out and you can make it through the first few days I will have to take you to the frontier restaurant. I was going to the movies but I went shopping and did laundry and it is already 2:30 and I am tired and I know if I go out again I will have to buy some hooch.
Philadelphia and Cleveland are in OT right now the Eagles have the ball and are driving McNabb just threw the ball 50 yards in the air and the receiver had it knocked away at the last second. It is Cleveland ball. 15 yards for Garcia who has been called the ugliest player in the NFL and a former player has said he is gay despite this Garcia has dated playboy bunnies. A series of bad plays leaves them 4th down and a yard to go, they will go for it. No it is a hard count, TO be called and it remains to be seen if they will punt, they do and an eagle bounce leaves them just beyond the 20. Dallas and Green Bay are tied 3-3 in the 1st. McNabb just went for a 40 yard run and they are close to being in FG range. What will happen? Quien Sabe? Pass to the 45 and they need 10 more yards to be at the edge of Fg range but I think they will go for the TD. But wait, Holding number 89. the eagles are pushed back, a couple of runs picks up 18 and they are in the kickers range and the will likely go for the td now, confusion forces McNabb to call a TO because the 25 second clock was running out, Ohhhhhhh pass almost intercepted, what was McNabb doing? Ok Akers comes out for the FG, 50 yards attempt. The snap the kick, it is good Eagles stay undefeated; the Browns hang their head in shame and walk off their field defeated.
Back to your letter
You can be funny sometimes saying I cut my hair or two, and I did not vote three times but I don’t talk about it anymore (by the way Angela’s birthday is Wednesday) because people just stair at me and a few don’t even acknowledge my existence. I don’t care so when I am in their area on a work topic I try to be as loud as possible and the person I am talking to have a hard time keeping from laughing.
I am glad you like my letters but it is hard to write every day and to be thoughtful. I have notions in my head but I cannot get them on paper. If I can stay off the hooch then maybe my head will clear. I have a hard time sleeping and I am afraid of becoming dependent on my leg kick meds. I may drop back to 1 mg and try to avoid any kind of caffeine.
Why are you drinking so much coffee? And what id up with the body lotion, is it a luxury that helps you stay in there? Coffee is a bad liquid but I hear it is good for an enema.
The fact that most people in there can not read or write should not be a surprise to you, it is a big problem and it is hard for many of the people in there to get a job with 1) a record, 2) cannot read, and 3) no experience. You are very lucky your dad supports you, what would you have done if your dad was a file clerk? You cannot expect your dad to keep opening his wallet to cover your expenses beyond your SSI.
Do you want me to mail that ministry thing for you, what is your address I don’t have it anymore and I don’t want to be on their mailing list. Maybe when you get out you can join that church down the road that is getting its members ready for the end of the world. I hope you remember to keep the stamp and I will put a note on the outside of the envelope. It is a long story on how I got the stamp but I hope you get to keep it or at least see it, pretty funny huh? If you didn’t get to see it I will have to figure something out I may take a picture of the envelope---------------------------------------***** Look just below the stars
Time to go, Have a nice week behave
Danny
Friday, October 22, 2004
Letter to a friend 7 in the am
October 22, 2004
To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance. - Oscar Wilde
I’m glad you enjoyed the phone call last night, I had a hard time sleeping, and I woke up at 4:30 and I tried to sleep and I must have drifted on and off because before I knew it, it was 7:00. Last night before you called I went to Wal-mart to see if they has a shower chair, I would like to sit down and let the warm water cascade off my head. It is a relaxing and meditation technique. They had a chair but it was $43.00 and only supported 250 lbs. That is too close and I would look stupid if I hurt my self by a collapsing chair. I sit on the floor of the shower and it is hard to lift myself up after I feel sufficiently relaxed.
11:20am
Forgot to put the start time, I’m sorry you had to pay the 18 cents to get the last letter, I really did weight the letter but from now on if it is close I will put the extra stamp on it. I may go to the movies and see “the motorcycle diaries” it is about Che Guevara before he became a revolutionary in Cuba and South America.
12:25pm
Once again I am worried that you are way too giddy with expectation as to what will happen when you get out. xxfriendxx, we have a long history but we are very different people both in age and level of acceptance of our place. I just do not see any future until (from my standpoint) I am happy with myself, and that could be years (weight, job, finances) and on your end well your addiction and what drives your self-destruction. I miss getting high but I don’t have the drive to act on it, at least from the standpoint of weed, I do use alcohol in an abusive manner and I can monitor it at the current time. I don’t want you to get pissed off just before you get out and you fuck up your first day out, and I don’t want the responsibility of giving you any illusion about our future or I want to limit how much you can count on me. Things are different.
The election is still close and Kerry should be pulling away, I think he blew it, and even if he wins he will be in a bad situation. If Bush wins the world will be in a bad situation. My analysis tells me that there will be a major bombing but I don’t know if it will be in America or in Europe, I’m thinking it will be the UK and it will be bad. Watch for a Halloween target date, all souls day would be better, but if kids are targeted it will be very bad, that is why I think it will be a weekend and probably not a civilian target.
One time xxguyxx got a visitor and I horned in on the conversation and xxguyxx gave me that look that guys give for the other to beat it, she is married but I don’t think Daniel will care. I council him on the perils of dating or screwing someone he works with. But he didn’t listen to me and I don’t think he ever will. Hell I don’t listen to anyone. I did put out a fire today and I did it for Edwin but it was set up to look like Edwin had the situation in control and he kind of did I was just the contact man and if Camille had been here two days ago she would have been doing it.
xxgirlxx got me a shot glass from Jamaica , it looks pretty cool, this is enough for now I must post
To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance. - Oscar Wilde
I’m glad you enjoyed the phone call last night, I had a hard time sleeping, and I woke up at 4:30 and I tried to sleep and I must have drifted on and off because before I knew it, it was 7:00. Last night before you called I went to Wal-mart to see if they has a shower chair, I would like to sit down and let the warm water cascade off my head. It is a relaxing and meditation technique. They had a chair but it was $43.00 and only supported 250 lbs. That is too close and I would look stupid if I hurt my self by a collapsing chair. I sit on the floor of the shower and it is hard to lift myself up after I feel sufficiently relaxed.
11:20am
Forgot to put the start time, I’m sorry you had to pay the 18 cents to get the last letter, I really did weight the letter but from now on if it is close I will put the extra stamp on it. I may go to the movies and see “the motorcycle diaries” it is about Che Guevara before he became a revolutionary in Cuba and South America.
12:25pm
Once again I am worried that you are way too giddy with expectation as to what will happen when you get out. xxfriendxx, we have a long history but we are very different people both in age and level of acceptance of our place. I just do not see any future until (from my standpoint) I am happy with myself, and that could be years (weight, job, finances) and on your end well your addiction and what drives your self-destruction. I miss getting high but I don’t have the drive to act on it, at least from the standpoint of weed, I do use alcohol in an abusive manner and I can monitor it at the current time. I don’t want you to get pissed off just before you get out and you fuck up your first day out, and I don’t want the responsibility of giving you any illusion about our future or I want to limit how much you can count on me. Things are different.
The election is still close and Kerry should be pulling away, I think he blew it, and even if he wins he will be in a bad situation. If Bush wins the world will be in a bad situation. My analysis tells me that there will be a major bombing but I don’t know if it will be in America or in Europe, I’m thinking it will be the UK and it will be bad. Watch for a Halloween target date, all souls day would be better, but if kids are targeted it will be very bad, that is why I think it will be a weekend and probably not a civilian target.
One time xxguyxx got a visitor and I horned in on the conversation and xxguyxx gave me that look that guys give for the other to beat it, she is married but I don’t think Daniel will care. I council him on the perils of dating or screwing someone he works with. But he didn’t listen to me and I don’t think he ever will. Hell I don’t listen to anyone. I did put out a fire today and I did it for Edwin but it was set up to look like Edwin had the situation in control and he kind of did I was just the contact man and if Camille had been here two days ago she would have been doing it.
xxgirlxx got me a shot glass from Jamaica , it looks pretty cool, this is enough for now I must post
Monday, October 18, 2004
Letter to a friend 4 or is it 5 or 6
October 18, 2004 s/I 7
If you find in your heart to care for somebody else, you will have succeeded.
- Maya Angelou
If you can dream it, you can do it.
- Walt Disney
Think for yourself and let others enjoy the privilege of doing so too.
- Voltaire
8:30am
I forgot the handwritten letter at home so I will have to mail it either tonight or tomorrow, if I can make it to the gym it will be tonight. I hope you are happy PC’ing yourself. I was very frustrated with you concerning the envelopes. I suppose I’d prefer a long letter every couple of days than a short one every day. I gave you those envelopes to write your father, and me but if you can use them for creature comforts then it is all the same to me. You better not be using them for smokes as I don not condone that kind of activity when you are supposed to be preparing for an honest life on the outside. I had a terrible time sleeping last night and as a result I am sleepy but I did manage to sleep a few hours so I will not feel the effects for a while. I lost part of the tennis elbow brace and I am wearing the brace and debating whether or not to get a new one.
9:38am
I just hit the wall, one of my downloads crashed while I was trying to save it. I got one of the printouts so it isn’t a total disaster. I am in serious danger of nodding off. I wonder why I can’t sleep. Part of it might be the noise that the Cpap makes or the noise of the fan. I really do not care either way. I just want to sleep. I wonder how you fill your days? Do you just sit on the bunk and talk to others in PC, or do you just keep to yourself and write letters and re read the letters I send. You mentioned that you wee going to try to read the bible from beginning to end. How is that going? If you are still trying to do it then it must be very hard. I could not do it. I still do not understand your plan on what you will do once you get out, it may no longer be my business and it may never have been my business, but how will you stay on the straight and narrow. On thing while I can still concentrate, avoid the calls please. I get too aggravated, and it puts me in a bad mood. The letter I forgot I never finished and will mail as is, the goodwill I felt went away after I hung up. I remember when you used to call before I couldn’t take anymore I would stay on the phone until the time was up and the call would end with me telling you when I would visit. I can’t visit and I can’t talk to you for 15 minutes. Things have changed, (its not even 10:00 and I want to curl up and take a nap today will be hard)
10:52
Just came back from a walk, it is definitely fall, the coolness of the air I felt is replaces by the beads of sweat rolling off my forehead (when I was a kid every time I head someone talking about their forehead, I thought they meant they had four heads and I always wondered which head is in charge, when I hit puberty I found out which one was in charge) like I ran a marathon and I barely walked ¾ of a mile. I pretty much suck don’t I, I can’t take care of myself, I can’t provide the emotional or moral support you need, and I don’t want your help. I’m really lost and to become unlost I need to determine where I am and where I need to go.
11:55
My cowboy stew it being nuked as we speak, I have been trying to make stuff lately and go through my cupboard and avoid bean burritos, chili dogs, and dollar burgers. If I stay home thee is less likely a chance I will buy Hooch, I have also avoided lottery tickets even though there is an exciting new game from the Lottery called 4 your way but I call it 4 on the floor, because you win in reverse order and can win as much a 4000 dollars, my head hurts from lack of sleep and I wonder how much longer can I still be productive. The food absolutely sucked, I tried to fit it all in he little glad ware and as a result it did not reheat properly and I made a mess trying to stir it around so it is hot and cold at the same time and cold beans and rice with lukewarm chicken does not cut it, thee is fudge outside the cubical and I may partake of it to get some kind of energy.
1:40
I only have a few minutes I am waiting for a call on info I requested. I ended up speaking politics with @#$%^&*( for most of the lunch hour. It is very scary, Bush is still hanging around and Kerry isn’t responding properly. His only chance right now is to win the 8 states he needs and he is tied with Bush. It looks like Kerry has conceded the popular vote and it looks skewed, like he is losing when he may pull it off.
3:00
The baseball game starts in a few minutes, but I have lost a lot of love for any sports, since the cubs aren’t in it and I don’t watch much pro football anymore, I really don’t care either way. I would like to see the Red Sox win it this year, hoping it would inspire the cubs to pull it off next year but that is a iffy proposition at best. The powers that be do not know how to be in charge, instead of directly saying that there is too much visiting up front, there are signs that say “This is a confidential area, please do not discuss personal business” and “This is a confidential area please do not treat it as a break area”, nothing is said to anyone, I guess expecting us to read the signs, here is the weird thing. No one really notices them but if one of the secretaries stops me and asks me a question I get the dirty looks. He don’t like me and I don’t care because we don’t even say hello when we pass each other, since we don’t talk I can’t get in trouble like I have with others who share their personal opinions with me and it degenerates into a argument.
Anyway it is now 4:50
Time to call it quits, I hope you can behave, I hope you can get by without a call
Peace
If you find in your heart to care for somebody else, you will have succeeded.
- Maya Angelou
If you can dream it, you can do it.
- Walt Disney
Think for yourself and let others enjoy the privilege of doing so too.
- Voltaire
8:30am
I forgot the handwritten letter at home so I will have to mail it either tonight or tomorrow, if I can make it to the gym it will be tonight. I hope you are happy PC’ing yourself. I was very frustrated with you concerning the envelopes. I suppose I’d prefer a long letter every couple of days than a short one every day. I gave you those envelopes to write your father, and me but if you can use them for creature comforts then it is all the same to me. You better not be using them for smokes as I don not condone that kind of activity when you are supposed to be preparing for an honest life on the outside. I had a terrible time sleeping last night and as a result I am sleepy but I did manage to sleep a few hours so I will not feel the effects for a while. I lost part of the tennis elbow brace and I am wearing the brace and debating whether or not to get a new one.
9:38am
I just hit the wall, one of my downloads crashed while I was trying to save it. I got one of the printouts so it isn’t a total disaster. I am in serious danger of nodding off. I wonder why I can’t sleep. Part of it might be the noise that the Cpap makes or the noise of the fan. I really do not care either way. I just want to sleep. I wonder how you fill your days? Do you just sit on the bunk and talk to others in PC, or do you just keep to yourself and write letters and re read the letters I send. You mentioned that you wee going to try to read the bible from beginning to end. How is that going? If you are still trying to do it then it must be very hard. I could not do it. I still do not understand your plan on what you will do once you get out, it may no longer be my business and it may never have been my business, but how will you stay on the straight and narrow. On thing while I can still concentrate, avoid the calls please. I get too aggravated, and it puts me in a bad mood. The letter I forgot I never finished and will mail as is, the goodwill I felt went away after I hung up. I remember when you used to call before I couldn’t take anymore I would stay on the phone until the time was up and the call would end with me telling you when I would visit. I can’t visit and I can’t talk to you for 15 minutes. Things have changed, (its not even 10:00 and I want to curl up and take a nap today will be hard)
10:52
Just came back from a walk, it is definitely fall, the coolness of the air I felt is replaces by the beads of sweat rolling off my forehead (when I was a kid every time I head someone talking about their forehead, I thought they meant they had four heads and I always wondered which head is in charge, when I hit puberty I found out which one was in charge) like I ran a marathon and I barely walked ¾ of a mile. I pretty much suck don’t I, I can’t take care of myself, I can’t provide the emotional or moral support you need, and I don’t want your help. I’m really lost and to become unlost I need to determine where I am and where I need to go.
11:55
My cowboy stew it being nuked as we speak, I have been trying to make stuff lately and go through my cupboard and avoid bean burritos, chili dogs, and dollar burgers. If I stay home thee is less likely a chance I will buy Hooch, I have also avoided lottery tickets even though there is an exciting new game from the Lottery called 4 your way but I call it 4 on the floor, because you win in reverse order and can win as much a 4000 dollars, my head hurts from lack of sleep and I wonder how much longer can I still be productive. The food absolutely sucked, I tried to fit it all in he little glad ware and as a result it did not reheat properly and I made a mess trying to stir it around so it is hot and cold at the same time and cold beans and rice with lukewarm chicken does not cut it, thee is fudge outside the cubical and I may partake of it to get some kind of energy.
1:40
I only have a few minutes I am waiting for a call on info I requested. I ended up speaking politics with @#$%^&*( for most of the lunch hour. It is very scary, Bush is still hanging around and Kerry isn’t responding properly. His only chance right now is to win the 8 states he needs and he is tied with Bush. It looks like Kerry has conceded the popular vote and it looks skewed, like he is losing when he may pull it off.
3:00
The baseball game starts in a few minutes, but I have lost a lot of love for any sports, since the cubs aren’t in it and I don’t watch much pro football anymore, I really don’t care either way. I would like to see the Red Sox win it this year, hoping it would inspire the cubs to pull it off next year but that is a iffy proposition at best. The powers that be do not know how to be in charge, instead of directly saying that there is too much visiting up front, there are signs that say “This is a confidential area, please do not discuss personal business” and “This is a confidential area please do not treat it as a break area”, nothing is said to anyone, I guess expecting us to read the signs, here is the weird thing. No one really notices them but if one of the secretaries stops me and asks me a question I get the dirty looks. He don’t like me and I don’t care because we don’t even say hello when we pass each other, since we don’t talk I can’t get in trouble like I have with others who share their personal opinions with me and it degenerates into a argument.
Anyway it is now 4:50
Time to call it quits, I hope you can behave, I hope you can get by without a call
Peace
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
It is important to make sure you post everything
Today is Columbus day
When I was a kid, we got the day off in the same day every year, before Monday became the holiday, I heard he was a historic man, a great man....
It wasn't until High School I learned of what really happened, I wondered why Hispanics from the Caribbean were black and didn't look like other Native Americans, I remember that Columbus thought he was in India, he called them Indians.
They all died
to replace them,
they got slaves and taught them Spanish
This holiday should go, replace it with 9/11 as a national day or mourning, heritage, and freedom. A denouncing of those who would divide us in the name of Patriotism
When I was a kid, we got the day off in the same day every year, before Monday became the holiday, I heard he was a historic man, a great man....
It wasn't until High School I learned of what really happened, I wondered why Hispanics from the Caribbean were black and didn't look like other Native Americans, I remember that Columbus thought he was in India, he called them Indians.
They all died
to replace them,
they got slaves and taught them Spanish
This holiday should go, replace it with 9/11 as a national day or mourning, heritage, and freedom. A denouncing of those who would divide us in the name of Patriotism
Happy death to Native Americans Day
George Bush must be defeated
If you look at zero you see nothing;
but look through it and you will see the world.
- Robert Kaplan
When there is a professional confrontation with someone who is a friend but not necessarily a bud, there is an element of (push me)-(pull you) the mythical character in that horrible movie of the 60’s. If that other person is a woman then the hurt feelings go beneath the surface and simmer. It is a no win situation. I hate my job and I see a my element of happiness will not get any better and the failure of retraining worries me to the point I see reassignment in the future or the predictions of my big mouth getting me in trouble.
Michael Moore was here and it was an amazing experience, not from the standpoint that to was “THE MICHAEL MOORE” but to see a political rally and each subsection dressed in different colour shirts jumping at different points of the speech. It was amazing to me to see that many young people joining together. I hope they can pull it off. From any standpoint and any viewpoint it would be a horrendous thing to see the idiot in for 4 more years, more so that even Reagan, although if bush wins it would prove that anyone can be president even if you don’t have a brain, or have Alzheimer’s, as long as you pander to the 9000 or so people that run the world. People don’t see who Al Quada really wanted to hurt
George Bush must be defeated
If you look at zero you see nothing;
but look through it and you will see the world.
- Robert Kaplan
When there is a professional confrontation with someone who is a friend but not necessarily a bud, there is an element of (push me)-(pull you) the mythical character in that horrible movie of the 60’s. If that other person is a woman then the hurt feelings go beneath the surface and simmer. It is a no win situation. I hate my job and I see a my element of happiness will not get any better and the failure of retraining worries me to the point I see reassignment in the future or the predictions of my big mouth getting me in trouble.
Michael Moore was here and it was an amazing experience, not from the standpoint that to was “THE MICHAEL MOORE” but to see a political rally and each subsection dressed in different colour shirts jumping at different points of the speech. It was amazing to me to see that many young people joining together. I hope they can pull it off. From any standpoint and any viewpoint it would be a horrendous thing to see the idiot in for 4 more years, more so that even Reagan, although if bush wins it would prove that anyone can be president even if you don’t have a brain, or have Alzheimer’s, as long as you pander to the 9000 or so people that run the world. People don’t see who Al Quada really wanted to hurt
George Bush must be defeated
Monday, October 11, 2004
When did it all go bad
George bush must be defeated
Anyway so much for the old days
I didn’t understand your message, the message was something about moving but I just checked and you do not appeared to have moved anywhere except maybe get more room. More room is more problems I managed to make something to eat, go shopping, get oil change, and enjoy the rainstorm.
I’m really tired, and I am waiting to take my meds a little while. It is 7:15 and there isn’t much on TV and I really dread going back to school, I mean work. I hate going back after a little time off. There will be much work waiting, I will be much busy. I really don’t care about much except getting the tasks done and trying to not piss off anyone but not let them take advantage of any situation. Maybe it is the waiting for the election maybe it is the weight.
I’ve been thinking about buying a chair for the shower so I can sit and let the water cleanse me of my sins and my filth. It is too hard to sit and stand up. My knees are shit. My brain is mush. I want booze but I know that I can’t succumb to the temptations, I should have stuck to beer, but that hard stuff hits the spot that covers the ugliness and the pain and the failures.
I knew why Little John Drank himself into oblivion I knew why he had the taste, but I didn’t understand why he still believed it would all go away. I remember him attacking the bottle, I swear when he was in the zone, as he took each drink just as it hit his lips. I swear his flesh went away and I saw his skull. It is weird what we remember. This morning I didn’t sleep and I saw the dawn creep into the room and I was mentally going over which of the phone number I remembered was his and I took off the machine and grabbed the phone to call him before I remembered what happened.
It is very hard to forget the smell of the room where he blew off his head, and seeing the bits of brain against the wall
Michael Moore is awesome
Team America is wonderfully wicked, but it had no point. I found the acting wooden and the believability of the Script hung by a thread
I am enjoying the National anthem: The concert for change tour on the sundance channel
George Bush must be defeated and the Dixie Chicks should get to play as they drive away forever.
Anyway so much for the old days
I didn’t understand your message, the message was something about moving but I just checked and you do not appeared to have moved anywhere except maybe get more room. More room is more problems I managed to make something to eat, go shopping, get oil change, and enjoy the rainstorm.
I’m really tired, and I am waiting to take my meds a little while. It is 7:15 and there isn’t much on TV and I really dread going back to school, I mean work. I hate going back after a little time off. There will be much work waiting, I will be much busy. I really don’t care about much except getting the tasks done and trying to not piss off anyone but not let them take advantage of any situation. Maybe it is the waiting for the election maybe it is the weight.
I’ve been thinking about buying a chair for the shower so I can sit and let the water cleanse me of my sins and my filth. It is too hard to sit and stand up. My knees are shit. My brain is mush. I want booze but I know that I can’t succumb to the temptations, I should have stuck to beer, but that hard stuff hits the spot that covers the ugliness and the pain and the failures.
I knew why Little John Drank himself into oblivion I knew why he had the taste, but I didn’t understand why he still believed it would all go away. I remember him attacking the bottle, I swear when he was in the zone, as he took each drink just as it hit his lips. I swear his flesh went away and I saw his skull. It is weird what we remember. This morning I didn’t sleep and I saw the dawn creep into the room and I was mentally going over which of the phone number I remembered was his and I took off the machine and grabbed the phone to call him before I remembered what happened.
It is very hard to forget the smell of the room where he blew off his head, and seeing the bits of brain against the wall
Michael Moore is awesome
Team America is wonderfully wicked, but it had no point. I found the acting wooden and the believability of the Script hung by a thread
I am enjoying the National anthem: The concert for change tour on the sundance channel
George Bush must be defeated and the Dixie Chicks should get to play as they drive away forever.
Friday, October 08, 2004
3rd letter to a old lover
October 7, 2004
I wish I could show you, when you are lonely or in darkness, the astonishing Light of your own Being.- Hafiz Another morning another challenge, in efforts to streamline efforts, the Department is asking for a concise statement of duties and the actual time spend performing those duties. This is part of the effort to correctly tie in costs to grants, but it is also an effort to reassign duties and personnel as directed by a faction of what I call the old wives club against the young girls club. As is per my normal lot in life I am caught in the middle. Normally I don't mind but the cubicles are rather short, (about 5 feet) and when someone complains to me about someone else, the voices carry and I get it from both sides and not in a good way.
There is word of an attack on a hotel in Baghdad interrupting a wedding party; it is the insurgents, terrorists, or a jilted suitor. I wonder because I am fascinated by revenge, how mad can a woman get. Like if on of the bush twins got knocked up by Michael Moore in revenge for screwing up their lives. The best example of revenge by a chick has to be the Late Lisa Left eye, who burned down her boyfriend's mansion, like what did he do. The fact that he got together with her again before her death is either a testament to fear or Lisa's special talent (and it ain't singing).
What would you do or what have you done to get your revenge upon myself
Lyrics to a song that used to remind me of you
Apologies to Dion and the belomonts
Each time we have a quarrel, it almost breaks my heart,
Cause I'm so afraid that we will have to part
,Each night I ask the stars up above,
Why must I be a teenager in love?
One day I feel so happy, next day I feel so sad.
I guess I'll learn to take the good with the bad.
Cause each night I ask the stars up above,
Why must I be a teenager in love?
I cried a tear for nobody but you,
I'll be a lonely one, if you should say we're through.
Well, if you want to make me cry,
that won't be so hard to do.
And if you should say goodbye,
I'll still go on loving you.
Each night I ask the stars up above,
Why must I be a teenager in love?
I cried a tear for nobody but you,
I'll be a lonely one, if you should say we're through.
Well, if you want to make me cry, that won't be so hard to do.
And if you should say goodbye,
I'll still go on loving you.
Each night I ask the stars up above,
Why must I be a teenager in love?
Why must I be a teenager in love? (In love)
Piss off ----you fucked up my life
I wish I could show you, when you are lonely or in darkness, the astonishing Light of your own Being.- Hafiz Another morning another challenge, in efforts to streamline efforts, the Department is asking for a concise statement of duties and the actual time spend performing those duties. This is part of the effort to correctly tie in costs to grants, but it is also an effort to reassign duties and personnel as directed by a faction of what I call the old wives club against the young girls club. As is per my normal lot in life I am caught in the middle. Normally I don't mind but the cubicles are rather short, (about 5 feet) and when someone complains to me about someone else, the voices carry and I get it from both sides and not in a good way.
There is word of an attack on a hotel in Baghdad interrupting a wedding party; it is the insurgents, terrorists, or a jilted suitor. I wonder because I am fascinated by revenge, how mad can a woman get. Like if on of the bush twins got knocked up by Michael Moore in revenge for screwing up their lives. The best example of revenge by a chick has to be the Late Lisa Left eye, who burned down her boyfriend's mansion, like what did he do. The fact that he got together with her again before her death is either a testament to fear or Lisa's special talent (and it ain't singing).
What would you do or what have you done to get your revenge upon myself
Lyrics to a song that used to remind me of you
Apologies to Dion and the belomonts
Each time we have a quarrel, it almost breaks my heart,
Cause I'm so afraid that we will have to part
,Each night I ask the stars up above,
Why must I be a teenager in love?
One day I feel so happy, next day I feel so sad.
I guess I'll learn to take the good with the bad.
Cause each night I ask the stars up above,
Why must I be a teenager in love?
I cried a tear for nobody but you,
I'll be a lonely one, if you should say we're through.
Well, if you want to make me cry,
that won't be so hard to do.
And if you should say goodbye,
I'll still go on loving you.
Each night I ask the stars up above,
Why must I be a teenager in love?
I cried a tear for nobody but you,
I'll be a lonely one, if you should say we're through.
Well, if you want to make me cry, that won't be so hard to do.
And if you should say goodbye,
I'll still go on loving you.
Each night I ask the stars up above,
Why must I be a teenager in love?
Why must I be a teenager in love? (In love)
Piss off ----you fucked up my life
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
second letter from the overlord to the inmate
October 6, 2004
When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left and I could say, "I used everything that you gave me."- Erma Bombeck
I got your letter last night and I heard you call and if you think that it is best for you to be there then by all means stay there. You don’t need to be connected to any illegal activity.
Just took your call and don’t count on it happening again because I am going to hear about it when the charge appears on the phone list. I didn’t drink last night (which is a victory) but I had the taste for it. I don’t know how I sunk so far down the list of things I would never do.
Tonight will be tough but I might go to the movies
I almost came to blows with $$$$$$$, he insists he is 6’ foot even and he appears to me to be about 5’11 ¾and we started arguing and he got a ruler and marked off 6 feet. Someone measured him and he hit the mark exactly, I then asked him about his shoes which were still on. I then asked him to produce his license, which listed him at 5’1. They had to separate us and he is in a meeting right now. I convinced him that falsifying information on a Government issued document is a fourth degree felony and I had an obligation to turn him in and since he has a state government job. He would be in jeopardy of losing his job if convicted of being 6’ feet tall.
I may have told the wrong person that I voted three times, since I used the $$$$$$$$ $$$$'s address I could be accused of using a state job to establish a residence, but since they cannot prove I registered here until after the election, and the County clerk would be hesitant to admit I voted three times and their security was that bad on opening day. I should be ok. But they are threatening to contact the Journal “speak out” and rat me out by using my initials, which isn’t so bad, but they would use the $$$$$$$ $$$$ initials which would be bad.
I really feel like a drink right now and I wonder if it is the guacamole in the taco salad because I have a hankering for tequila. I don’t understand the nature of my feelings for you, work and other things. In one sense I feel creative but I have no outlet for it, maybe that is why I feel the need for drink, to release in some sense the juices that have been slowly drying up.
$$$$$$$$$$ once again is trying to convince me he is 6 foot tall and related a story I will have to tell you some day
Many people are gone. It is after 4:00, $$$$$%%$ just told me she doesn’t want me talking about Team America anymore in her presence because it bothers her, and I wonder if she has a thing about puppets. (I’m just kidding about $$$$$$$$$) Maybe a hand puppet or one with strings scared her when she was a kid
Time to close out, keep safe and I hope you get the envelopes, call me and say ‘I got the envelopes’ I sent 9, 5 on Monday 4 on Tuesday
B-Have
&&&&&&&
When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left and I could say, "I used everything that you gave me."- Erma Bombeck
I got your letter last night and I heard you call and if you think that it is best for you to be there then by all means stay there. You don’t need to be connected to any illegal activity.
Just took your call and don’t count on it happening again because I am going to hear about it when the charge appears on the phone list. I didn’t drink last night (which is a victory) but I had the taste for it. I don’t know how I sunk so far down the list of things I would never do.
Tonight will be tough but I might go to the movies
I almost came to blows with $$$$$$$, he insists he is 6’ foot even and he appears to me to be about 5’11 ¾and we started arguing and he got a ruler and marked off 6 feet. Someone measured him and he hit the mark exactly, I then asked him about his shoes which were still on. I then asked him to produce his license, which listed him at 5’1. They had to separate us and he is in a meeting right now. I convinced him that falsifying information on a Government issued document is a fourth degree felony and I had an obligation to turn him in and since he has a state government job. He would be in jeopardy of losing his job if convicted of being 6’ feet tall.
I may have told the wrong person that I voted three times, since I used the $$$$$$$$ $$$$'s address I could be accused of using a state job to establish a residence, but since they cannot prove I registered here until after the election, and the County clerk would be hesitant to admit I voted three times and their security was that bad on opening day. I should be ok. But they are threatening to contact the Journal “speak out” and rat me out by using my initials, which isn’t so bad, but they would use the $$$$$$$ $$$$ initials which would be bad.
I really feel like a drink right now and I wonder if it is the guacamole in the taco salad because I have a hankering for tequila. I don’t understand the nature of my feelings for you, work and other things. In one sense I feel creative but I have no outlet for it, maybe that is why I feel the need for drink, to release in some sense the juices that have been slowly drying up.
$$$$$$$$$$ once again is trying to convince me he is 6 foot tall and related a story I will have to tell you some day
Many people are gone. It is after 4:00, $$$$$%%$ just told me she doesn’t want me talking about Team America anymore in her presence because it bothers her, and I wonder if she has a thing about puppets. (I’m just kidding about $$$$$$$$$) Maybe a hand puppet or one with strings scared her when she was a kid
Time to close out, keep safe and I hope you get the envelopes, call me and say ‘I got the envelopes’ I sent 9, 5 on Monday 4 on Tuesday
B-Have
&&&&&&&
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Letter to a friend
George Bush must be defeated
this letter has been edited for recognition
October 5, 2004
As is only common in the area, whenever there is any kind of important public event, an event that is outdoors, you can always cont on the weather to be absolute horrendous. Last night there was a hailstorm that I cannot properly describe, except I waited for a tornado warning that never came. The noise was so loud, the hail hitting the Swamp cooler, that I had to turn he TV way up and also didn’t sleep a wink.
I think about you in the darkness, the hum of the air conditioner droning on and I wonder if you are awake or if you are sleeping soundly, knowing you are safe. I went shopping and bought tomatoes onions and a potato to make a healthy meal. While stopping to get a lotto ticket I saw some very cheap whisky and got the cheapest cola intending to have one drink to relax. I make the food and watched reruns of Curb you enthusiasm and OZ, listening to the hail storm waiting for the roof to cave in or a tornado warning to appear on TV I inadvertently drained the entire bottle, and I don’t feel well, I didn’t sleep well and it is a good thing there was a hailstorm otherwise I would be the only one dragging around. Apparently no one got any sleep last night so I am not the only one who looks like Keith Richards, I am the only one who feels like Keith Richards.
This morning the light was flashing on the Caller ID and I checked and there were 10 messages, I was scared something had happened and I had slept through the phone messages. The messages were all old and went back to last Wednesday and there were two messages from you from this weekend so while you did leave them they were no delivered until this morning.
Early voting starts today and I am going to walk downtown and vote to get it out of the way. The Vice president debates are tonight and Michael Moore will be in town Sunday night and the tickets are 5 bucks. Today ***** turns 40. ********** came into town and left a mess and left town. The kids are very upset and ********** is a wreck
Since I feel like hell I will close now and enclose some envelopes but I will not be sending anymore for a while, I will still try to write. I pray I won’t give into temptation and buy some more hooch. I am sinking into ***** ******’s world and I don’t like being at his level. I can almost understand your demon. Please try to not lecture or I will no longer share. Do not tell ******* or ********* but if you are in a group and feel the need to talk about it then by all means go ahead. I think you understand why we cannot be “Togeather” anymore
Sleep well
A younger version of myself is trying to contact me.
George Bush Must be defeated
this letter has been edited for recognition
October 5, 2004
As is only common in the area, whenever there is any kind of important public event, an event that is outdoors, you can always cont on the weather to be absolute horrendous. Last night there was a hailstorm that I cannot properly describe, except I waited for a tornado warning that never came. The noise was so loud, the hail hitting the Swamp cooler, that I had to turn he TV way up and also didn’t sleep a wink.
I think about you in the darkness, the hum of the air conditioner droning on and I wonder if you are awake or if you are sleeping soundly, knowing you are safe. I went shopping and bought tomatoes onions and a potato to make a healthy meal. While stopping to get a lotto ticket I saw some very cheap whisky and got the cheapest cola intending to have one drink to relax. I make the food and watched reruns of Curb you enthusiasm and OZ, listening to the hail storm waiting for the roof to cave in or a tornado warning to appear on TV I inadvertently drained the entire bottle, and I don’t feel well, I didn’t sleep well and it is a good thing there was a hailstorm otherwise I would be the only one dragging around. Apparently no one got any sleep last night so I am not the only one who looks like Keith Richards, I am the only one who feels like Keith Richards.
This morning the light was flashing on the Caller ID and I checked and there were 10 messages, I was scared something had happened and I had slept through the phone messages. The messages were all old and went back to last Wednesday and there were two messages from you from this weekend so while you did leave them they were no delivered until this morning.
Early voting starts today and I am going to walk downtown and vote to get it out of the way. The Vice president debates are tonight and Michael Moore will be in town Sunday night and the tickets are 5 bucks. Today ***** turns 40. ********** came into town and left a mess and left town. The kids are very upset and ********** is a wreck
Since I feel like hell I will close now and enclose some envelopes but I will not be sending anymore for a while, I will still try to write. I pray I won’t give into temptation and buy some more hooch. I am sinking into ***** ******’s world and I don’t like being at his level. I can almost understand your demon. Please try to not lecture or I will no longer share. Do not tell ******* or ********* but if you are in a group and feel the need to talk about it then by all means go ahead. I think you understand why we cannot be “Togeather” anymore
Sleep well
A younger version of myself is trying to contact me.
George Bush Must be defeated
Monday, October 04, 2004
Moore is coming, and I have nothing to eat
October 4, 2004
George bush must be defeated
Another day in paradise perpetuated by my never-ending quest to get a decent night sleep, the Cpap mask is hurting and the new one basically sux. I am getting indentions under my nose and micro pimple white heads clustered around the stubble of lazy shaving. The mornings are cool and there is a whiff of moisture in the air and the dawn of sunrise has the air of hope. The leaves are turning a golden hue and the lawns are sprouting political signs of every venue. I am encouraged by the polls but there is a long way to go. I was embarrassed by the performance of the president and wonder how much of the world mocks the bumbling leader of the free world while oppressing the people of Iraq, you gotta want to be a cop real bad considering how often they get blown up. Or as they say in Texas “They done got blowed up real good”
The weight battle moves on, I see temptation at every street. There are $0.99 burgers at every corner, extra big burritos only $1.29, Biscuits and gravy galore, extra large fries, BBQ Ribs, Extra crispy Chicken, mashed potatoes with gravy (extra butter). But no, you can’t have any of that, Broiled chicken, fresh vegetables, water, no booze.
I have a $5.00 five-foot mirror, cheap but effective and I am still shocked every time I walk in front of it, the imminence of my belly is astounding, yet I have no ass, I have huge love handles, but no ass, bad knees, bad back. No more burgers
Legumes, fruit, fish (baked) BTW how the hell do you cook fish on a George Forman Grill, steamed veggies, I wish I could eat veggie’s but I just cant, steamed, fried, boiled. Can’t stand them
I just heard word of Michael Moore’s visit to here, Tickets are $5.00 I have to go there, I just have to but I can’t get any info, they say call the bookstore, I call the bookstore and a woman (who must be a Fascist Republican) spewed out the ticket office number which contradicts the radio ad and she cut me off before I could ask questions. Is it Conspiracy or my reaction to rude clerks? HMMMMMMM
End transmission
George Bush must be defeated
George bush must be defeated
Another day in paradise perpetuated by my never-ending quest to get a decent night sleep, the Cpap mask is hurting and the new one basically sux. I am getting indentions under my nose and micro pimple white heads clustered around the stubble of lazy shaving. The mornings are cool and there is a whiff of moisture in the air and the dawn of sunrise has the air of hope. The leaves are turning a golden hue and the lawns are sprouting political signs of every venue. I am encouraged by the polls but there is a long way to go. I was embarrassed by the performance of the president and wonder how much of the world mocks the bumbling leader of the free world while oppressing the people of Iraq, you gotta want to be a cop real bad considering how often they get blown up. Or as they say in Texas “They done got blowed up real good”
The weight battle moves on, I see temptation at every street. There are $0.99 burgers at every corner, extra big burritos only $1.29, Biscuits and gravy galore, extra large fries, BBQ Ribs, Extra crispy Chicken, mashed potatoes with gravy (extra butter). But no, you can’t have any of that, Broiled chicken, fresh vegetables, water, no booze.
I have a $5.00 five-foot mirror, cheap but effective and I am still shocked every time I walk in front of it, the imminence of my belly is astounding, yet I have no ass, I have huge love handles, but no ass, bad knees, bad back. No more burgers
Legumes, fruit, fish (baked) BTW how the hell do you cook fish on a George Forman Grill, steamed veggies, I wish I could eat veggie’s but I just cant, steamed, fried, boiled. Can’t stand them
I just heard word of Michael Moore’s visit to here, Tickets are $5.00 I have to go there, I just have to but I can’t get any info, they say call the bookstore, I call the bookstore and a woman (who must be a Fascist Republican) spewed out the ticket office number which contradicts the radio ad and she cut me off before I could ask questions. Is it Conspiracy or my reaction to rude clerks? HMMMMMMM
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George Bush must be defeated
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