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Covid-19 Quarantine Day 30

Well its been 30 days, I've left a few times to resupply.  Mom is terrified,  if we leave we have to wash down and change clothes.

My TBI Sister is restless and believes Jesus will protect her.  She wants to do laundry. MA said no and she ignored her.  She can't ignore me.  Last year she threatened me when Ma was in San Diego,  she honestly believed she could kick my ass and took a swing at me and smacked me in the face.  Out of pure instinct I punched her in the shoulder and she went down.  I politely informed her if she wants to fight i will accommodate her.

No birthday this year, but I'm almost 60.  A dear friend from. MCCURDY sent me some money, and I decided last night to buy 20 pair of underwear. 

I can't do laundry 

People seem to be doing well, we are together,  I hope it lasts

The Cats: The Wiz, Crooked the Cat, Sally the Instigator. And Luda the Cris are a great source of entertainment 

Trump is a real asshole

Homeless day 182

It's been a while, Gail has gone through several bags of clothes. An extra 500.00,  recent 500.00 that lasted 2 days, and several hospital stays that last until she doesn't get the meds she wants.  I got a call that she was in hospital the day after another hospital was looking for her bec6she walked out before they finished her treatment for abscess from injections, ( which she denys).

I saw her Friday, got a call from her health care, she was kicked out of ER at Kaseman for pulling out IV.  A very nice person JUV, waiting with her, I told him I have her meds an $5.00.

She tapped on window,  I ignored her, JUV thanked me.  I left.  I texted him and asked if she had any clothes, he didn't know. 

I got her 2pants, 2 shirts, hoodie 3 pair socks. 

She looks terrible , is getting breathing treatments every 4 hours.

Saw her today, took her waffle stompers, she complained,  the nurse asked why she has abscess on both hips. I thought it was obvious,  gail made a shooting motion at her arm, I remarked that she uses dirty needles.

I dressed her, and remarked " I usually take your pants off, not put them on"

She asked how much money she is getting for her birthday,  I said none, she got unhappy,  and I left. 

I was having lunch with E--.

I missed her call, a cell phone call came in, I couldn't hear.  I knew what happened,  but waited,  called at 6pm.  She isn't in there anymore.  I told E-- I'll probably have to pay for funeral. if she lives to my 60th. I'll be stunned.

Heroin wins again

My Christmas story for 2019

A very old and dear friend of mine, has been in contact with me a lot. His dad is getting sick, and my friend is slowly preparing for the inevitable.
We go way back , hard to believe how long it's been. One of the very original Chales, a subversive group of ner do well kids, whose crimes and misdemeanors are plainly silly in retrospect.
My friend has been hungry and homeless before HS, and being hungry at an early age drove him to make as much money as he could, and he saved much of it. He was always fearful he would lose everything.
This drive ruined his health. We had many discussions over the years, and he always was overly impressed I got a degree and later retired from a job I didn't particularly like.
As you know I made a life decision regarding Gail, and for the most part, I've been slowly staying true to my plan. Gail is the one who moved on. A homeless addict, is much like a deer in the woods. Survival is a daily struggle. No time to say " I love you for sentimental reasons " it's hard to say goodbye.
As he talked me off the wall metaphorically, and I did the same for him. He always says he was " lucky " to be in financial stability, and I reminded him he worked very hard and the physical and mental told it took out on him. He always thanked me and told me how important our friendship is.

I've always sent him cards with the theme, I'm his uncle Danny and the cards were definitely not meant to be seen, and I'd add a dollar or two dollar bill, and I'd write horrible things and alter the picture in a very juvenile manner. He said he has every one

The last week he asked for my address m, even though he knows it and said he put an important note on the card, he kept calling to see if I got it.
I got it and it had a "C-NOTE", a hundred dollars.

He was very emotional and didn't want me to think he was looking down on me, he just wanted for me to have some fun money and he now thinks he'll be ok, he finally got married and feels safe for probably the 1st time ever.

We have some insane plans after we turn 62.

This CHRISTMAS, I wish all of you the Love you seek, the family binds that may frustrate, but keep you sane. I pray you find the peace if mind I am seeking, and the friends i am fortunate to have.
We live in troubled times, and I hope it will not define our reason to hope. No matter which side of the aisle we sit, and I realize my opinion is eating at my soul.
As I get older, I see my only opponent is Time.
I am grateful to you who spend your time with me and are part of what I call
"The Danny V experience:
Peace and Love to you all

Danny V.

Homeless day 141 and a funny Memory

In 1993, Gail and I went to the Lobo Game.  I think it was the Air Force game.  I got the tickets from someone at work.  We were on the top row.  We had only been dating about 4 months, so everything was still fun.

Gail had a period of her life where she "dated" a lot, and I can't judge cause,  if I was good looking and could get women to buy me things and they would have let me enjoy their company,  I would have at every opportunity. 

Gail had her fair share of opportunities,  I wish she had taken better care of her appointment books.  Would have made for good stories,  I don't remember all the names.

The football team had just finished a terrible season. A promising coach Dennis Franchione,  from a small division 2 school in Texas was hired.  He was going to be displayed at halftime.  He was standing at the top row, flanked by UNM athletic dignitaries.   People taking pictures.   Gail saw him, and didn't remember his picture was in the paper.

She got excited and told me " I know him, I think I slept with him" people turned around and stared. 

" He's the new football coach, and I don't think you've had time to add him to your list"

She laughed and blushed.

The Lobos just named their new Coach, and I was offered tickets to tonight's game. cause it's one of those games people give away their tickets to.

I miss that Gail. I saw her a few days ago, she cut off all her hair and took a shower.   She looked good for a 80 year old man.

I've accepted what she is, I need to accept who I will be

Cheap trick, dead battery, found wallet, and 13 years later a stolen car

Homeless day 30-Goodbye Gail

August 27, 2019
I let Gail go a month ago.
This would have been 27th anniversary, after pleading and begging Gail decided she rather live in Los Altos Park and live in addiction. I care for her deeply, but she is a far cry from the gal in this picture from 1979.
It was a long and winding friendship and later relationship. I've been going to Nar alon and it's giving me perspective on the opiod crisis that is sweeping the nation.
I see commercials on not giving up on addiction and the people that suffer, but being on the other side isn't easy. It's been a long and strange journey. If she ever finds salvation, we'll probably be friends, but its clear she has moved on from me, all her memories were thrown out by her family and they tapped out completely.
She had special soul, an infectious personality that will serve her well on the streets, and a kinship with spirituality that may save her, but a distant reality I cant see the end of the road. she is an original Chale, but the joke we shared isn't funny anymore.
I'll miss her, I know if she recovers she'll stay away, apropos as many of my friends have been telling me for years it's time to move on, and its finally time to say...
CHALE ON

Homeless day 67

October 4, 2019

12:30
It has been raining all day, and I slept in with Crooked the Cat at my side. I got up was getting ready for a shower. Gail called and sounded scared, was cold. She wanted a blanket, hat and the clothes she thinks are in the trunk.
She threatened to get Crooked the Cat and Sally.She has birth certificate. She called 3 times and I have a hoodie she gave me years ago ( stole it) and a heavy blanket I needed when we lived together and has ink stains. My sister gave a scarf I gave her for Christmas ( don't know why she added this info) and a knot beanee.
I gave her 10.00 and the items. She complained about her situation, asked me to take her for hot chocolate, but I refused, tried to get a picture when I left but the rain distorted it, missed a good shot when I pulled up with her head down. She refuses a shelter.

Homeless day 33

Gail called yesterday, she wanted to meet today, but I was noncommittal.   She doesn't want money,  she wants to see me.  Her mom won't take her calls and according to her her phone is off the hook.
She said people throw money at her, she doesn't want money from me, will not go to shelter because she isn't clean, and she needs to see me.  She asked what day it is and I told her.  She remembers the anniversary that is not to be.
Her voice was flat no sign of the Gail I know