All star game and memories

July 15, 2008
11:30 pm
The game is still on, bottom of the fifteenth, one man on. This has been a pretty good game. Lots of chances (OH GREAT DIVING CATCH-Ludwig) a few mistakes, great plays, pitching. I need the NL to win so me cubbies will have home advantage
BC-116 not bad, see what it is in the morning.

I really dread tomorrow
Loaded bases pop fly AL wins, my night is ruined
Goodnight


12:21

Horrible morning, stayed up too late, too much on the plate, did a little shopping at lunch, hope to finish and start to plan out meals, cat got spooked by the road work outside, cBC was 141 this morning ouch!!!

Quick lunch, remainder of sandwich, should do laundry and prepare for interview tomorrow.

5:30
BC 101
Tired, gF dad wrote note outlining support, gF didn’t get hint. I tried to explain and was interrupted; I am tired of the grief

Was thinking I know 3 people who have killed them selves since 2000. One a good friend. Another a total babe who good friend wanted to nail (not me as it would not be right for a troll to score a babe unless I was totally rich and abusive, cant disturbed the universe), and the latter a former hippie co-worker tried to set me up with who was psycho and I knew was psycho and wanted a donor to produce child, had said child, took up crack as a hobby and offfed her self leaving behind a letter on how she hated everyone (mainly her parents and 4 yr old) and left huge mess and deeply hurt feelings. Strange how memories flood in

1) good friend gets work-study in the Seychelles islands (Indian ocean), friend loses job after getting drunk and crashing assigned car into side of mountain. Friend given 24hrs to get off island, gets back and we make plans to do something, I can’t remember what, but on final leg of flight meets guy from same town that the college he goes to and asks him if he be interested in making 18,000.00 a year working part time (a lot of money almost 30 years ago), friend blows me off because this guy saw value in him, saw the imminence potential in him, promised to help guide him towards untold wealth. He implies that I may soon be unworthy of his attention once he starts on the road towards a degree and first million unless I step up, and not to expect a gift of money from him. I knew what will happen and try to warn him, but I am jealous and dismissed with a wave of the hand. Next day I get a profanity laden call, why???? He meets the guy and endures a presentation of …….. wait for it----------------Amway. I still laugh my ass off and it was a precursor to his life of missed opportunities, bad connections, misplayed trust, and broken dreams that cumulated with a bullet in the brain, and the worst smell I have encountered. After removal of his remains, I actually thought “Well there you are, all over the place’

I take gF to mental health clinic for meds, while waiting I see woman who is a head turner, trying not to get caught I only make glances as gF is going on and on about something and notices girl, they are friends from way back when she was married to dentist who provided painkillers and they bonded. There is more, that night above friend calls and tells me he meets this babe who finds him intelligent and witty at an AA meeting, friend has come into some money, I ask if this babe is aware of this, and he confirms but says this girl is not like that and I am ….. Jealous, gF, the dentist’s wife, and friend party hard for a week, I can’t remember if friend got more than once, but when cash is gone dentist wife is gone, I get profanity laden phone call on how she used him, dentist wife kills herself a few years later which gets to me I laugh not because she is dead, but because if there is a suicide heaven-she still will not give it up to friend.

Last item will be brief, she calls me at home and wants to meet, I inform her that I have gF, she says it is nothing, I say no. I learn that her husband killed himself, she presses for meeting and I can tell she is not of right mind and wants a sperm donor, though intrigued I decline. She finds someone who is already behind in C/S pmts but has kid, gets insurance settlement and lives high off the hog becoming a crack floozy; kid has problems but is young. She blows all cash, hates kid, becomes lesbian gets roof over head, loses roof stops being lesbian, gets public assistance and blows 5g’s she was hiding on last blow out and puts bullet in head. Kid acknowledge he has mom, but does not ask for her. She is ashes but because of final note and problems she has left, her remains are not claimed, kid will be adopted by 3rd cousin. As in true in mythology this girl is only child, if they were not in their 70’s they would take kid but tried to get coworker who started the whole mess to take kid, but alas she has health problems.

Sad tales one and all, I wonder how story of gF will end